Settled in finally


Well, I’m all settled into my apartment in North Hollywood. This is the view from my balcony. Yes, I have a balcony! That’s a big deal to a Minnesota girl. Now just lots of job searching!


Moving Los Angeles!

On Monday, I left Minnesota and started driving west. I’m currently staying at a friend’s house near Orem, Utah, and the mountains here are beautiful!

ImageTomorrow I’ll be making the final journey to L.A., and Saturday morning I’ll be moving into my new apartment! Then it’ll be time for job searching!

The Outside

My friend, Jenna, always told me Triple Stacks was a secret place.  She said only people who grew up in Mankato know about it.  She went there a few years ago to get stoned with her friend James and another guy.  It was the most beautiful place in Mankato she said.  But it’s a secret.  And she would never tell me where it is.  She said I could go there — with her — if I sat in the back blind folded.

Today the temperature has to be in the sixties.  It’s a gorgeous November day in Mankato, similar to the 80 degree stretch of days we had in October.  How cunning fall has been this year.

I decide today is the day I will go outside.  In the little free time I have, I generally watch a little TV or read a book and tell myself that I just don’t have enough time to go outside.  Today that will change.

“Let’s go outside,” I say to Jenna as I sit on the loveseat and pop two bronchitis pills.

“Yeah, it’s gorg, we should,” she replies, not looking up from her computer screen.  She hasn’t left the couch since I went to the doctor almost two hours ago.

“Seriously, we need to do something.  All we ever to do sit here.”

“What’s a website that has stuff to do in Kato on it?”

“I don’t know, Greater Mankato Growth events?  Those aren’t the things I’m really looking to do though.”  I carefully fill a tablespoon with the codeine syrup the doctor has prescribed me.  I am terrified.  May Cause Drowsiness.  Alcohol May Intensify This Effect.  Use Care When Operating A Car or Dangerous Machinery. May Cause Dizziness.

“I know, I’ll call Nate.  He grew up here,” Jenna says.

I don’t know who Nate is, but fine.  She knows so many people.  I stick the spoon in my mouth and hope for the best.

After countless phone calls and internet research, we are traveling down 169-South on an adventure.  Jenna insists on using her GPS, whom she calls Bridget, but as she does not know the address, I drive aimlessly while Bridget sits on Jenna’s lap and continues to re-calculate our trip.

We turn left to continue on 169, and I notice an old sign that says “Wildlife Safari.”  It is a dark brown yet metallic looking sign.  The letters have been cut out leaving jagged metal edges behind.  The dirt road it points to doesn’t seem like it would be home to the greatest safari on the planet.  We giggle at the thought of it.

Jenna is taking me to the secret place she calls Triple Stacks, only she won’t tell me that’s where we’re going.

“We’re going to Triple Stacks, aren’t we.”  I’m so positive that it doesn’t even sound like a question.

“No, no, no.  Now it’s one of these roads on the left, but I can’t remember which one.  It’s by the Mankato Cycle Club, whatever that is.”

“You can’t guess what that is?”

“Well I don’t know what the hell a cycle is.”

I’m astonished, but I shouldn’t be.  Over the years I have had to explain to Jenna the definitions of many words.

  1. Swine
  2. Marlin
  3. Splice
  4. Domestic Partnership
  5. Arsenal

Her most amazing moment, though, came when I asked her what countries are north and south of the U.S.

“Well, Canada. And… South America,” she replied.

She took a family trip to Mexico roughly six months before I asked her that.

We pass a side road with a good tree on it.  I call them good trees.  The ones I like.  This tree looks older than the landscape itself.  It is black and hunched over the gravel path it stands along as if it is reaching to dig its branches into the ground on the other side.  I think to myself, that’s the road.

We drive past.

“Ummm… I think that last road was it actually,” Jenna says.

I find a side road, one with the extra black top on the edges so that it’s really wide, and make a u-turn.  Bridget says a loud, “recalculating.”  We make it to the road with the tree, and I lean over the steering wheel, mesmerized by the rickety branches.  That tree deserves a black and white photo of itself up on a wall in some art museum.

We finally make it to the “secret” spot, and I pull the care to the edge of the road.  Jenna turns off Bridget because we have arrived at our destination.  She was so much help.

“I hear a waterfall, and there’s a river or something,” I say.  “I know we’re at Triple Stacks.”

Jenna laughs and smiles.  “Come on!”

We walk down a path and reach a ledge.  It looks like we’ll be climbing staggered sandstone rocks all the way to the bottom.  Many rocks, I think.  Now that I’m standing, I realize I’m only feeling slightly dizzy from the medication, but my eyes probably make me look high as a kite.  Medicine always does that to me.  The dizziness aside, I’m only wearing old shoes that are so worn thin they may as well be socks.  Jenna has on clogs though, so I figure she’ll probably fall before I do, but I’m still terrified.

“I’m going to die,” I say as a jump down to the next rock.

“It’s okay, I’ll lead.  You’ll be fine.”

Slipping and sliding through moss and leaves, we manage to scurry down about seven levels of rock before I finally see it.

I don’t know why it’s called Triple Stacks, but it is beautiful.  It’s like a harbor that no ship could ever fit in.  The walls are almost entirely sandstone with ledges of some rock I don’t know the name of at the top.  It is in a horseshoe shape, with side-by-side waterfalls in the well.  The water flows straight off the ledge, like one of those infinity pools.  It collects in puddles at the bottom, flowing randomly toward the river in confusion.  It looks like I could get down and stand underneath the waterfalls and only get misted with water—if I had better shoes.

So this is what outside is.

“What river do you think that is?” I ask Jenna.

“I’m pretty sure it’s the Mankato River.”

Even after all this time, I can’t help but laugh at her.


The sound of the cigarette paper burning is like the sound of the soft wind blowing through the frozen trees on the cold, still January night.  The sky gray but tinted pink from the lights of the city.  You stare deep into the orange cherry and are reminded of movies from your childhood.  You don’t know which ones.  You don’t know why this memory is triggered.  Your stomach is pained from the sobs of the last few hours.  A rotting feeling deep down like you ate too many green grapes.  You try not to think about the phone not ringing, but it is a constant thought in your head no matter how hard you try to force it out.  The TV buzzes with meaningless entertainment about the unfortunate lives of others.  You know your life isn’t that hard.  You don’t have a drug problem.  But you’ve always wanted one.  For so many years you’ve dreamt of a life where you could blame your problems on an addiction.  Your problems can’t even be called that next to those of others.  You’re hurt, but by what?  Confusion and misunderstandings.  Maybe that’s not even it.  Maybe you’re just let down.  Your expectations were too high.  You saw something that wasn’t there, put too much pressure on him.  Maybe it was just a relationship in your head.  He didn’t even know how close you two had become.  You had built a life together.  A life in Los Angeles, Chicago, Vermont.  You had four kids together.  Though you’d always dreamed of starting with boys, your first was a girl.  Her name was Ava.  She had your murky blonde hair and his deep brown eyes.  Eyes almost black, always looking hopeful and wanting.  Eyes like a deer in headlights.  You text him, tell him he can talk to you, that the future of the relationship rests on him.  You hope the time apart will make him see how great you were.  Make him miss you.  You know the truth is he’ll leave you.  You’ll never speak again.  Or he’ll never speak again.  After some time passes, you’ll text him to see how he’s doing even though you promised him you’d wait for him to talk first.  He won’t respond.  You’ll be crushed, and it will be another difficult day for you to get through.  You’ll wonder if he even got your message.  So you’ll send another and quickly realize how desperate you look.  The depression will worsen.  And for what?  Two months.  Two months is nothing.  Yet you sit and wonder if this is love.  It’s not.  Your jaw hurts like it has for days.  You don’t know why that is either.  Why don’t you know anything anymore?  You’re cold.  You’re cold all the time though.  Even with the heater burning against your skin, the heat can’t seem to penetrate down to your bones.  They ache with the cold.  The cold that came too early this year and is certain to leave too late.  You hate this place.  You wish to be irresponsible.  You wish you could lie in bed for days and not be bothered by bosses and friends and coworkers.  You wish you could pick up and drive and stop somewhere and build a new life.  A life without anyone from the old one in it.  You could change your phone number, forget them, disappear.  You sense vibrations that aren’t there, convince yourself it’s your phone even though you know it’s set to a loud ring, so you check it, and disappointment settles over you.  You wonder what he’s doing.  You imagine him checking his phone, reading your message, and sticking the phone back in his pocket.  He’s already forgotten you.  You’re too clingy, too emotional, too needy.  And you’ll swear you’re not.  But who are you to say that?  How are you to know something about yourself that another could discover so easily?  You make quick assumptions about others, why can’t they make them about you?  Are you one of those people you hate?  Are you that girl?  Of course you are.  Just look at what you’ve written.

Apartment Living

“Why the hell did I ever let you talk me into this. Now I’m wet and crying!”

She quickly got up and ran to her bedroom window. Looking down, she saw a soaking wet overweight girl in tight shorts. The bean-pole of a boy she was with took a drag from his cigarette. He looked uninterested in what she was saying.

She walked back over to the couch and sat down. Someone was banging on the neighbor’s door downstairs. Then silence. Bang, bang, bang. Silence. Bang, bang, bang. Silence. Footsteps coming up the stairs. She figured it was the upstairs neighbors, but something about the drag of the feet on the steps made her stare at the front door. It wasn’t locked. Her heart raced a little as she stared at the door. She thought about getting up, but she was paralyzed. The footsteps stopped. Her heart raced harder.

In the back of her mind she recognized that the wind was picking up and the rain was getting louder. She remembered reading the weather. Severe thunderstorms most of the night. It had been a miserably hot day for May. About 92 degrees with 89% humidity. She hated Minnesota.

She couldn’t see light from the hallway through the keyhole anymore. Something was blocking it. She thought about the times she had easily broken into her apartment with a credit card because she had locked her keys inside. But somehow none of her friends could ever figure out how to do it. They told her it was impossible because the doorframe blocked the latch. She told them they had to wiggle the card, but they said wiggling won’t make the card go through solid wood. She had always meant to show them how she did it.

She was even more conscious of the rain now. It sounded like the kitchen window by the back door was open. She figured rain was getting in, but what really worried her was that her plant might be uprooted from the wind. A crack of lightning flashed out of the corner of her eye. Then a loud roar of thunder.

She realized the sound had distracted her. She could see light through the keyhole again. She got up and walked the fifteen feet to the kitchen to shut the window. Sure enough, there was water on the floor. She checked the plant, then realized it was completely down pouring now.

Just as she turned to walk back to the living room, she noticed the back door was slightly cracked open. Well not open—it was ever so slight. Most people wouldn’t have even noticed, but in the year she lived there she had left the door locked with the chain on and never opened it once. The whole apartment was old— floors slanted and soft in some places. Nothing lined up. The door frames were uneven to the ceiling so people always thought her pictures were crooked. She could never tell what way was straight. The doors still had antique handles. The latches had clearly been added more recently. They were simple latches, just above the handle. A small gold knob controlled the mechanism, which just barely caught on the other side. She had always thought if a person pulled hard enough they could either force the latch open or simply break the door enough to get in. A chain sat just above the latch though, and that gave her some sense of relief for some reason. Her building was on a heavily traveled road in town, so she never really worried for her safety. Looking back at the latch, she could see it was not sitting in the hole of the piece on the other side— instead it was pushed up on the edge of the metal. Now just a slight push would open it.

She took a quiet step back and bent down to look through the keyhole. Light. She gently reached for the latch and turned it to push it back in place. She looked up and saw that the chain was still impossible to open. For a moment she had forgotten. Whoever installed the chain had attached it incorrectly, so the chain could never be taken off because it did not reach. When she first moved in she thought about asking the landlord to replace it for fear that she wouldn’t be able to get out if there was a fire. Now she was thankful for her laziness.

She walked back to the living room and sat on the couch again. Still light in the keyhole. She looked out the window and saw it was getting darker, the rain so intense she could barely see past the droplets on the window. The thunder roared louder, the lightning bright. The storm must have been right over her by now.

She heard someone coughing downstairs. Then creaking in the floor as someone walked in the apartment above. Another creak. Was that one from upstairs? She looked at the door, still light. But she saw she still had not locked it or put the chain on. Why hadn’t she done that when she came back from the kitchen? She stared out the window and listened to the storm intensify. The wind was picking up. It made the blinds shake back and forth. She hated how drafty all of the windows were. The charm of old houses was one of her favorite things, but there were always apparent downfalls.

She moved closer to the window to look down at the street. It was raining even harder now. There was another flash of lightning, then darkness. The power had gone out. She felt her heart beat harder. No light through the keyhole. She stared at it for a few minutes, taking notice of her heavy breathing had become, but remembering the hallway light was out too. She got up the courage to lock the door. As she walked the mere ten feet to it, each of her steps made the floor creak loudly. She suddenly felt more confident for some reason though. She reached out and switched the lock on. There was a loud metal click. Then she slid the chain on. The sound of metal dragging on metal sounded louder than normal. She waited by the door for a minute. Somehow, she could not shake the feeling that there was someone else standing just as still on the other side. She bent down to look through the keyhole. Darkness.

She walked back over to the couch and lit a candle. She picked up a book and began reading. After getting through a chapter, she paused for a moment and thought about how silly all of this had been. She continued reading. Soon the rain turned to a drizzle and the worst of the storm seemed to be over.

After about an hour of reading, the power came back on. She read a little while longer, and then decided it was time for bed. She stood up, shut off the light and walked the five feet to her bedroom. She changed her clothes and crawled under the covers. Just as she was nuzzling her head into her pillow, she heard it. The short shuffle of footsteps and loud metal click.

Story Time

While cleaning up my inbox the other day, I found a number of fiction and non-fiction stories that I’ve written for classes in the past. It occurred to me that it might be interesting to share a few of them! So here and there I’ll throw in some of my creative work to spice things up a bit!

My Time at the ReStore

I haven’t posted anything for a while because I’ve been busy with my internship at the Habitat for Humanity ReStore in Mankato. It just ended last week, so finally I’m prepared to share everything I learned there.

Not familiar with the ReStore? That’s okay. Few people are. The ReStore is basically a fundraiser for Habitat for Humanity. So in Mankato, all of the profits we made go toward building homes in South Central Minnesota (after paying bills of course). The store sells gently used and new home improvement materials such as tile, doors, windows, paint, carpet, light fixtures, plumbing supplies, hardware supplies and even more. Everything sold in the store was donated by companies or private citizens. Basically, it’s a really good cause and you can find great stuff for dirt cheap because they mark down the prices by about 50%. While I was there we got in numerous shipments that were just overstock of perfectly brand new items from name brand home improvement stores.

Habitat for Humanity ReStore

Habitat for Humanity ReStore and affiliate in Mankato, Minn.

I did a couple of very different things at my time there. First off, I worked in the store helping customers, running the cash register, stocking and organizing. This was part of my daily routine. On top of that, I did the weekly update for the store. The update was emailed out to people who requested it each week, and it included the sales for the week along with new items in the store. Because what’s in stock in the store is completely dependent on what people donate, items are constantly changing. The store might look completely different by the end of the day than it did when I walked in that morning. I also created a survey for our donors to better understand what brought them to the store and how to get them to come back. My survey was ultimately made available for all of the ReStores in the country to use. Another small project I did was revamping the store’s Facebook page. When I got there is was a regular friend page, and after I was done it was a fan page in timeline format with tabs for people to get more information on donating, shopping and volunteering at the store. Some company came in and offered to do the same thing to our page for a few hundred dollars a tab, but I said I could save us a ton of money by figuring it out on my own, so I did.

The biggest project I had at the ReStore was planning a donation pickup in a smaller surrounding town. I had to do this completely on my own. I figured out the time, the place, created the flyers, handed out the flyers, contacted local businesses about it, wrote and sent out a news release for it, then actually went to it and took the donations and put them in the truck for us to take back to the store– I did it all. It was the first time the store tried its hand at a project like this, and it went pretty well. We didn’t lose any money on it, and that was the major goal. The best part of the project was figuring out what worked and what didn’t so we could make it better in the future, and the store has plans to continue doing it in other communities.

All in all it was one of the best internship opportunities I could have asked for. I learned a TON about marketing and branding, which was very exciting coming from a journalism background. I met a lot of great people and didn’t just run coffee and sort files– I actually worked! Now I’m happy to tell people anything they’d like to know about the ReStore and its cause.

So now that graduation is over, the next step is job searching in Los Angeles!

My VisualCV

My VisualCV is now available to view online.

New Creation church plans to build prayer house

Potter’s House of Prayer in North Mankato will welcome all Christian denominations 24 hours a day, 7 days a week

New Creation World Outreach Church is working to build a place for continual worship that they call the Potter’s House of Prayer.

“It’s not going to be church as people understand it,” said Terrelle Wilson, youth pastor at New Creation in North Mankato, MN.

The Potter’s House is open to people of all Christian denominations. Its main function is to be a place where people feel welcome to pray 24 hours a day. Wilson said it will be very different from an average daily service because there won’t be any preaching. Instead, it will be a place where people can just encounter and interact with the Lord individually.

One goal of the project is not just to build a building, Wilson said, but to build a culture. He said the culture of prayer and worship they create will eventually fill the structure itself.


Wilson said New Creation decided to build a house of prayer around 2005. The leadership of the church was in crisis, and he said that situation showed the church there was a need for more prayer in the community. That’s when they stopped thinking about only daily services and started considering a different connection to God.

“The Potter’s House of Prayer is the big step into that reality of a priority and a core value shifting from man-centered religion to a Christ-centered relationship,” Wilson said.

Community urgency

According to Wilson, communities need houses of prayer for three main reasons:

  • The church is broken
  • The world is broken
  • There is a worth in Jesus that people aren’t realizing

“We’ve departed from any type of orientation of truth to our adaptation to our culture and what people want,” Wilson said.

He said right now the church is a joke, and people need a wakeup call in what it means to be Christian. The Potter’s House will help people who have lost track of their priorities and are struggling with economic and financial failures.


The goal for funding the project is to not go into extreme debt. Wilson said the project is supported primarily by donations. So far they have raised $306,678 and hope to raise up to $3 million overall.

The proposed building design for the Potter’s House of Prayer in North Mankato, MN.

The idea for the project has greatly evolved. Initial plans called for a 6,000 square-foot building, while current plans look closer to 22,000 square feet.

So far the church has purchased a nearby building to help teams learn how to operate a 24 hours a day house of prayer. The vision, he said, is that people will realize the need for this and will volunteer to be part of a team. Wilson said there will be scheduled trained teams of musicians and people leading prayer at all times, with audience members coming and going freely. He has already been working with one team for almost a year, but they will begin official training in January 2012.

Lynette Saucier, graphic designer and worship leader at New Creation, is helping to design the building and to train teams on different worship dynamics and techniques. She said they will be using prophetic music, which is more open to guidance from the Lord. It’s a style that takes a lot of learning and practice, she said, but she has high hopes for when the house opens.

“I think it’s a great avenue for [young people] to get connected with other people who are seeking the same things, and to be encouraged that there is more to life than just drinking and partying and hooking up with random people,” Saucier said. “There’s actually a purpose for why we’re here.”

Long term the church would like to model itself after the International House of Prayer in Kansas City, which has multiple focuses, including 24 hour a day, 7 days a week prayer and educational facilities that draw people from across the nation. They hope to continue forward with this process after the Potter’s House is completed.

Project by Elena Shufelt and Thuy Huynh

Minnesota State University sees increase in enrollment

Higher number of students creates need for renovations on satellite campus

This year the Minnesota State University campus has more new faces than usual.

The university had an almost 1 percent increase in total enrollment from last year. The number of first-year students this year is 2,465, which is up 4.4 percent from last year students. They’re not alone though—the university also saw a 1.7 percent increase in transfer students and the number of graduate students has nearly doubled since 2009.

MSU Admissions Director Brain Jones said the increase in enrollment is something they’ve been expecting. Total enrollment at MSU is now 15,547, which is closing in on the largest university in the Minnesota State Colleges and Universities system, St. Cloud State.

Students take off-site courses in multimedia classrooms

Renovations on the MSU at 7700 France campus will include one multimedia classroom.

The rise in enrollment is due in part to the prospering satellite campus MSU at 7700 France. The campus, which was established in 2008, started with 420 students in 6 classrooms. This year, almost 700 students enrolled and a 10 percent increase annually in enrollment is projected. It’s become apparent that the students have outgrown the space available, so the previously 12,271 square foot space leased by MSU is being expanded to 27,000 square feet. Renovations are expected to be completed this October.

Becky Copper-Glenz, MSU’s dean for the College of Extended Learning, said the campus changes are focusing solely on classroom expansion.

“We knew when we moved here that there would be a lot of demand,” Copper-Glenz said.

The expansion will add 9 classrooms, one of which will contain monitors and cameras that will allow students to participate in off-site courses.

Scott Neal, Edina city manager, said the MSU satellite campus fits in well with the information technology and health care industries in its community.

“It’s a nice fit with our local economy,” Neal said. “It’s good not only for local residents, but for the region as well.”

I would include a video with this story that would highlight the number of students on campus. Talking to transfer students as to why they chose to come to MSU would also be something I would include. I think it would be important to visit the MSU at 7700 France extension to show some of the construction and talk to students and officials there about the importance and necessity of more classroom space.

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My 10 keywords: Minnesota State University, renovations, satellite campus, transfer students, increase in enrollment, graduate students, expansion, college admissions, local economy, colleges in minneapolis (I used the first five.)